It's been a while since I journaled anything, but not that anyone really reads these anyway...it's all good...it will just feel good to get it all out.

The end of the semester is a few weeks away and because I started working full time and going to school full time and doing homework full time and sleeping part time, I screwed school up AGAIN.. and now I can't drop a class becuase I waited too late into the semester even tho I haven't gone to the class in months...so I'll get an F in it. I got a C in another class .. and I'll probably get a C in the only class I'm still in, if I'm lucky. I missed an exam in it because I was sick.

Speaking of that, I'm starting to get sick again... 2 summers ago I got really sick and was in and out of the hospital w/ problems regarding my stomach, and it's starting to come back. A lot of it has to do with anxiety and my anxiety is always really high at the end of the semester.

I also have to buy a new car within the month, and will have to budget a car payment, insurance, and rent - while going to school full time in the fall and working full time...serving tables at Chili's.

THEN I'm moving to be closer to work and school this summer. I'm moving in with one of my best friends, I'm stoked - but I'm extremely scared and nervous at the same time.

I'm single, and it's getting harder everyday. I feel like I'm missing something, but I'm too shy around girls to do or say anything that would insinuate to the least that I was interested in them.

The days keep going by, and not much is changing, and it's becoming really depressing. I think I'll go to bed now..